I have been so busy planning shoots for the beginning of this year. I'll be in Ohio a week from now, where I have two shoots, one of which is for a magazine. I'll be back in Ohio next month for a group shoot. I will be in Pittsburgh twice in April. I'll be in Columbus for a shoot in May. So, yeah -- traveling is going to be a big part of the ( Read more... )

I just returned from a trip to Florida. Elaine, TJ and I drove down Friday night and arrived early Friday morning. TJ had no recollection of his last trip to Florida, since he was one, and he had never seen the ocean. Needless to say, that's the first thing we did when we got there, despite it being 5 a.m.. He was in complete awe, which is ( Read more... )

And I'm not surprised. I'm not even sad about it. I'd rather date a fucking chicken than to date a girl who isn't strong enough to act like a sensible human being ever. I knew going in that this would be hard because she is batshit crazy. Maybe I believed that if she just realized her worth she could stop being such a goddamned force of nature ( Read more... )

I have a girlfriend, and she is beautiful. Some of you already know her in real life. Click the cut to see who.

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I could love you, but you settle. You let the world beat you down; you let other people beat you down. Worst of all, you beat yourself down. I want to hold as much as I want to smack you for not realizing how wonderful you are. I wish you knew how deeply I feel for you. If I could eat all of your pain, I would ( Read more... )

It has been a rough day today for several reasons ( Read more... )

I have been feeling rather down about my weight lately. It isn't that I look thicker to other people. Actually, it almost every way I look thinner. But I know what the scale says, and I know that I have to avoid half of my pants right now. This is probably the backlash from quitting smoking, and not much more. I still have been working out 3-4 ( Read more... )

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I have been feeling much better today than I've been accustomed to in quite some time.  It is a higher frequency of good days, while rare it seems, that lead me to believe that I am getting better.

TJ should be going back to work either today or Tuesday.  With this development comes great change.  It will be quite soon that he and I will be able to ( Read more... )

And if I were to bat an eye
I’d watch it slip
And pass me by
I’d drift away
out to sea
And let the waves
bury me*
I have not had a very good couple of days mentally.  Physically, I'm sick with a viral sinus infection.  How do I know that it's viral?  Because Trenton has the same illness. I have been battling a sore throat, congestion, blocked ear, ( Read more... )